Two months old!

My baby girl turned two months old yesterday. The hardest part about it was that she had to get shots. Taking her into the pediatricians office smiling and cooing all morning then having her begin crying as hard as she could once she was stuck was so hard to watch for my husband and I. I have to admit we both cried too after the nurse left the room. After her shots she slept for a long time until she was ready to eat. Once she ate the fussing so began. She just cried for a few hours and nothing but walking around and her swing could keep her mind of her sore legs. We fought the fit until she was ready for bed. We finally laid down around 10:00 but she slept until 4am! That is 6 hours! That is a very long time for Ollie. Today she's been in a wonderful mood. She's smiled all day. I'm glad her crankiness didn't last long since I'll have to deal with her daddy this Thursday after he has his wisdom teeth removed. I know that he will be a huge baby. Let's just say this week this mama is going into over time!!

The things nobody tells you

Nobody tells you how difficult it is to get pregnant when you want to. Yet so may women who don't deserve to be mothers are having kids left and right.  We tried for months and months. Tried tracking my ovulation schedule & everything. It's exhausting. I found the Glow app that really helped me through it all with online support groups? Tracking methods and so much more.

My battle with depression.

When you find out your pregnant it is such a joyous time. You want to tell everyone immediately. We told our close friends and family and shlcheduled our very first doctor appointment. I was 7 weeks when I went into the doctor office. We headed to our ultrasound room where I got the news that there was no heart beat. They wanted to monitor me in the next few weeks to see if there was any change. Our baby was not progressing and there was still no heartbeat at week 9. I was having good a miscarriage. My body was able to process the miscarriage on its own preventing me from having a D&C procedure. It was hard. I bled heavily for well over 3 months. I fell into a depression for awhile. I wasn't myself? I was pushing people I cared about away and I honestly regret it. I spent many nights crying and wondering what if. I was truly devastated. I struggled with my faith but I continued going to church to find answers. I was finally starting to cope and forcing myself to suck it up and deal with it. Things couldn't get better until I moved on.

Departure

We woke up early and packed everything in the back of my car we were ready on head home to see our dogs. We let the cabins USA Staff know we were leaving so they could reset the password code and we were officially on the road again! Our trip was long and hot but once we got home out dogs were thrilled to see us!

Day 6

This was our last full day in Tennessee. We got out of bed late and headed to Bubba Gump for lunch, it was one expensive meal for only 2 people!! We walked the strip a little more and made our final rounds in Gatlinburg checking out all of the shops. Once we left Gatlinburg we headed back to Pigeon Forge to walk their strip and check out all of the cars and shops again. We stopped in the candy store and tried to guess how much taffy would make 3 pounds so we could get it for free! We ended up only being .3 off!! We were so close!! We walk until my feet were blistered from my sandals and I ended up buying moccasins. We explored the island and it's shops one more time before heading to the Tanger Outlets. After that we were WORE OUT! we headed back to the cabin to pack and get ready to go in the morning. We had explored everything there was to explore! 

Day 5

We woke up and had breakfast at Flapjacks, it was okay but it was nothing compared to those delicious pancakes we had our first morning there. We drove back to Gatlinburg to ride the mountain coaster (we ended up riding it twice!) We also wanted to check out Doc Colliers moonshine & bootleggers homemade wine. We headed back to the cabin and Michael made spaghetti. After all our festivities for the day we ended our day watching  Silver linings playbook. It was a very good movie!!

Day 4

Michael woke up early and made croissants and sausage while I was still in bed. After he woke me up to eat his delicious breakfast we headed off to hike Cades cove. We drove through to each small trail. We did see 2 bear Cubs, a few deer and alot more wildlife. After we were hot and sweaty from our hike we decided to head to Huckfins for lunch. Michael used to eat there with his family when they would take their annual Gatlinburg trip. After alot of begging he agreed to take me into the Christmas shop where we got our very first ornament as a married couple! Two bears inside of. Tent that said our last name and our wedding date.  We headed back to our cabin to relax for the evening and spend some quality time together since our day was almost over.